gullible

i am reminded over and over again how gullible i am. how trusting and how stupid. in a world of evil, it's a dangerous trait. in a world of betrayal, dishonesty and ulterior motives, it spells pain and sadness.

i believe when i shouldn't. i am sincere when i have no idea whether others are. i hold out my hand when i don't know if it's a friend or an enemy.

time and time again i see so many faces of evil. yet.....i choose to take my first step in trust rather than suspicion. for there can be no friendship based on wariness. i rather believe and remove that privilege when doubts to the contrary arise. we all need to believe.....in the goodness of people, in the sincerity of others.

brain-washing

When People Walk Away From You, Let Them Go

Your Destiny Is Never Tied To Anyone Who Leaves You

It Doesn't Mean They Are Bad People

It Just Means That Their Part In Your Story Is Over!

someone sent me some thought provoking sayings, the most glaring of which is the above. it's a lesson that i have not been able to practice, much as i try to convince myself that it is so. being cast aside still hurts, no matter how much i cover up the wound. being forsaken feels so personal, like it must be a very serious flaw within me. but as i read the words, if it's also true to others so that they came up with the words of wisdom, then it can't be just me. it can't be my fault. i wonder how many times i have to re-read this so that my brain will accept it.