have you ever wondered how much you have changed over the years? how much each life experience has altered you, if only for that little bit. not necessarily pleasant, not necessarily for the better. i've always believed my life's journey has made me more bitter, more cynical, less trusting of the goodness in humans, perhaps from the ugliness that i have witnessed and the coldness i have come across. when i was younger, i wanted every change in myself to be for the good, towards the light of righteousness and kindness. but not realising when, not realising how, i've arrived at a lesser version of myself.
was looking through some old memories and came across a list i made 20 years back, a list of my favourite things. was amused to read it and visualise myself way back then, a little person growing up in the world, full of ideals, full of enthusiasm. some things have changed, but surprisingly some things haven't. some things had to be compromised, some things staled but some things are forever me.
this is what i wrote.
what i like:
1. bouquet of pink roses
2. cuddly big soft toys
3. walking in the rain
4. watching the rain
5. staring at the night sky with the one i love
6. candlelight dinners
7. white t-shirt with blue jeans for guys
8. colour: pink, blue and white
9. dimples, long eye lashes, bushy eye-borws, smooth tanned skin
10. tom yam, paper-wrapped chicken, chicken fillet, prawn salad
11. unexpected presents (but not expensive ones)
12. strolling on the beach at night
13. having a dip at night
14. guitar-players
15. living in a double-storey spartment
16. a fireplace
17. someone who loves me very much
18. comedy shows
19. sentimental music
20. running/sprints
21. guys who are gentle and respectable with girls
22. chocolate ice-cream / milkshake / freeze / sweets
23. lemonade
24. low beds with satin sheets and many small satin pillows
25. wedding in church and honeymoon in rome and paris (i did go to paris for my honeymoon, without actually looking at the list. knowing that i did stay true to my dreams, even if it's only just that one thing, makes me feel warm.)
26. smiles and warm open hearts filled with love.
27. in a car with rolled down windows, loud music and moderate speed.
28. looking out to the sea from a ship.
29. shopping for clothes and stationery
30. sensitivity, manners, lots of love, understanding, smiles, protective, take care of me
31. strawberries, longans, lychees, watermelon.
32. making new friends
33. watching people dance
34. someone i like to hold and hug me from behind
35. cool windy days
36. char kway teow, fried bee hoon, chicken rice, roti canai
37. singapore
38. snow
39. bmw, ferrari, sports car
40. true friendships that last forever
41. sports: all types except roller-skating and golf.
some may be curious which is still me, which paled in the process of growing up. notice the colour difference. one is me, one isn't. only thing is, which is which? seems that i haven't really change all that much.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Monday, August 04, 2008
me meme-ing
me meme. meme me. you get the idea.
sweet shyanyan passed the baton, can hardly say no. so 3 about me is what you are going to get.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY....
1. girllllllll (the emphasis on the 'lllll' is a must. haven't heard that since i got married though)
2. mummyyyyyyyyyy (incessantly, without a break in between when they are awake)
3. low por (come to think of it, does hubby call me that?)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD....(sounds like i'm a film star or something)
1. kaypolenglui (contrary to public belief, i didn't conjure that name up. whoever was the first idiot who put the name of my blog with my id should be slaughtered. the name stuck.)
2. me
3. mummy me (i don't even know if this is a reference to my status as a mother or my drawing of a mummified blogger, will have to ask annie)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my lips
2. my teeth, which doesn't need much care
3. my genes, which means i'm not likely to have diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesterol if i don't abuse myself that is. also means i will have the following three physical flaw. genes are physical! you know the 23 pair chromosomes thingy....you want to see mine?
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF...
the first would definitely be the fact that i'm too much of a perfectionist and too tight-ass budden that is not physical....so,
1. my thighs, i'm distantly related to elephants.
2. my eyes. considered going for facial surgery but i'm allergic to pain
3. overstored fats for winter that will not be coming anytime soon.
THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE
1. hokkien-hokkien. and i can speak hokkien, not like one of those fake hokkiens-by-name-only! :-p
2. strange middle fingers that bend slightly away from the center, thanks to my father. told him i would have been happy with just his acute business acumen, but nope, he decided i needed his strange fingers, and toes, instead.
3. single eyelids, thanks to him too. wouldn't believe it to look at him because he has double eyelids..now. told me his double eyelids are a result of old age and droppy skin..... i have so much to look forward to when i get older. *rolls eyes*
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. not being able to stay alive for my children (used to be life was for myself, but now living is imperative for my children)
2. the death / sickness of my loved ones
3. not knowing my passion in life
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
i'm tempted to write air, water and food but i'll probably be blasted by readers....
this is difficult. most things i can go without. no handphone, who cares, all the better. no computer, ahhhhh, rest for one day, no facial products, i'm not that religious about it anywayyyyy....
1. perhaps the voices of my hubby and children.
2. food. hahaha. spare me, i really can't think of anything else.
3. clean underwear? ahhhhhhh, i don't know!!!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. my heart on my sleeve
2. clothes, duhhhhh....(and nope, not pj's)
3. a pen through my hair
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. natalie imbruglia
2. diana krall
3. no more... :-p
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS RIGHT NOW
1. phantom of the opera
2. angel of music (also from phantom of the opera)
3. blind romance (tony leung....awwwww)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. love
2. laughter
3. sex? who wouldn't?
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. dimples
2. 5 o'clock shadow
3. a shoulder that feels all warm and comfortable when you lie on it, like you have finally returned home.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. reading
2. writing
3. photography (which i still happen to suck, so don't ask)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. visit alaska to see the northern light
2. go on an alaskan cruise
3. eat chicken rice 5 days in a row
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. miss hongkong. hahahahahaha.
2. kindergarten teacher
3. subtitle-writer for illegal vcds. they really need i good one, i'm telling you.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. duh, alaska, didn't you read?
2. como shambhala, bali
3. banyan tree ringha, tibet
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. see the northern light
2. discover my passion
3. live in other countries for a few months at a go.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i cry too easily when i watch movies.
2. i like earrings :-)
3. i like to be hugged and kissed
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i like to stalk hardware shops, they give me thrills, after stationery shops of course.
2. i can't stand women gathering in a group, all giggly and gossipy.
3. i have hair on my fingers :-#
THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
since i don't take rejections easily, and to save myself from thumping my head against the wall when i'm ignored, i rather not. the only person i can think of who will actually layan me is wuching. so, wuchy, if you please.
and zewt. for teasing me. :-p
sweet shyanyan passed the baton, can hardly say no. so 3 about me is what you are going to get.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY....
1. girllllllll (the emphasis on the 'lllll' is a must. haven't heard that since i got married though)
2. mummyyyyyyyyyy (incessantly, without a break in between when they are awake)
3. low por (come to think of it, does hubby call me that?)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD....(sounds like i'm a film star or something)
1. kaypolenglui (contrary to public belief, i didn't conjure that name up. whoever was the first idiot who put the name of my blog with my id should be slaughtered. the name stuck.)
2. me
3. mummy me (i don't even know if this is a reference to my status as a mother or my drawing of a mummified blogger, will have to ask annie)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. my lips
2. my teeth, which doesn't need much care
3. my genes, which means i'm not likely to have diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesterol if i don't abuse myself that is. also means i will have the following three physical flaw. genes are physical! you know the 23 pair chromosomes thingy....you want to see mine?
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF...
the first would definitely be the fact that i'm too much of a perfectionist and too tight-ass budden that is not physical....so,
1. my thighs, i'm distantly related to elephants.
2. my eyes. considered going for facial surgery but i'm allergic to pain
3. overstored fats for winter that will not be coming anytime soon.
THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE
1. hokkien-hokkien. and i can speak hokkien, not like one of those fake hokkiens-by-name-only! :-p
2. strange middle fingers that bend slightly away from the center, thanks to my father. told him i would have been happy with just his acute business acumen, but nope, he decided i needed his strange fingers, and toes, instead.
3. single eyelids, thanks to him too. wouldn't believe it to look at him because he has double eyelids..now. told me his double eyelids are a result of old age and droppy skin..... i have so much to look forward to when i get older. *rolls eyes*
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. not being able to stay alive for my children (used to be life was for myself, but now living is imperative for my children)
2. the death / sickness of my loved ones
3. not knowing my passion in life
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
i'm tempted to write air, water and food but i'll probably be blasted by readers....
this is difficult. most things i can go without. no handphone, who cares, all the better. no computer, ahhhhh, rest for one day, no facial products, i'm not that religious about it anywayyyyy....
1. perhaps the voices of my hubby and children.
2. food. hahaha. spare me, i really can't think of anything else.
3. clean underwear? ahhhhhhh, i don't know!!!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. my heart on my sleeve
2. clothes, duhhhhh....(and nope, not pj's)
3. a pen through my hair
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. natalie imbruglia
2. diana krall
3. no more... :-p
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS RIGHT NOW
1. phantom of the opera
2. angel of music (also from phantom of the opera)
3. blind romance (tony leung....awwwww)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. love
2. laughter
3. sex? who wouldn't?
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. dimples
2. 5 o'clock shadow
3. a shoulder that feels all warm and comfortable when you lie on it, like you have finally returned home.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. reading
2. writing
3. photography (which i still happen to suck, so don't ask)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. visit alaska to see the northern light
2. go on an alaskan cruise
3. eat chicken rice 5 days in a row
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. miss hongkong. hahahahahaha.
2. kindergarten teacher
3. subtitle-writer for illegal vcds. they really need i good one, i'm telling you.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. duh, alaska, didn't you read?
2. como shambhala, bali
3. banyan tree ringha, tibet
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. see the northern light
2. discover my passion
3. live in other countries for a few months at a go.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i cry too easily when i watch movies.
2. i like earrings :-)
3. i like to be hugged and kissed
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i like to stalk hardware shops, they give me thrills, after stationery shops of course.
2. i can't stand women gathering in a group, all giggly and gossipy.
3. i have hair on my fingers :-#
THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
since i don't take rejections easily, and to save myself from thumping my head against the wall when i'm ignored, i rather not. the only person i can think of who will actually layan me is wuching. so, wuchy, if you please.
and zewt. for teasing me. :-p
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