learning as i go along

it never rains, but it pours. such is my life.

they say that what can't beat you makes you stronger. a little melodramatic perhaps for the little hiccups that i am facing but certainly not any less true. whilst i can't say that i am stronger, i have learnt to take it one step at a time. i wake up in the morning light and the day ahead overwhelms me. there is so much to do, so much that lies in the shadow of the gargantuan mountain that obscures my day that it is intimidating to even climb out of bed. when things don't go smooth, nothing goes smooth. from the major picture or the little details to the hairline connections in between, everything falls apart. and so, i learn not to think. not to plan. not too far ahead anyway, but there is no stopping a virgoan's predisposal to mapping and organising. i take it one task at a time, and i do what i have to do. automatically even, like a robot's automated limbs. when humanly emotions such as fatigue, stress, exhaustion and recalcitrance are taken out of the equation, what is left is a surprisingly smooth flow of events.

and at the end of the day, i lay comatose in bed, re-energising for the start of yet another challenge.