Wednesday, January 24, 2007

application form

to: all readers

from: me, who else

re: application for leave


i have been infected by somebody's melancholic introspective bug. i realise that i no longer know why i am writing and for whom i am writing. this place no longer feels right and i don't feel i belong. the love for writing and story-telling is still there, but this does not seem like the place for me to do it anymore. perhaps i have been too caught up with the number game. how do you detach yourself from something as part of the game as that? i want to revel in the process, not the end-results for why else will i still be here?

maybe all i need is a break. maybe all i need is some time away.

will be back.

see you around.

19 comments:

ah pek said...

dunno why all women like dat wan leh?

Anonymous said...

oi! your leave NOT APPROVED!

signed,
boss

Anonymous said...

Take a break, have a Kit-Kat...

Anonymous said...

Tsk tsk tsk.... I echo LM... tidak boleh... mana boleh...

If you like writing, you should keep writing. So what if it feels like a number game sometimes, I think the average human being likes numbers. As long as you realize it.

Take a break if you must but don't give up so easily.

Anonymous said...

ME: I also hv reservations blogging these days. But for a different reason.

I end up writing about too personal stuff which I really should not.

But ME, dun give up lah. Will miss u.

Anonymous said...

ur application has been rejected, sorry u cannot go on leave!

me said...

dear ah pek: all women are temperamental, i guess. or maybe they get bored easily. i dunno. maybe pms. kakakakaka. the difference is..i'm not moody, i'm not thinking of quiting, i'm not unhappy. i just want to change the way i blog. i need some time.

dear monty: boss, *kneels on floor begging* i really need this leave lah. my cat died and my dog has terminal disease, which needs constant care. then my goldfish is having mood swings also, i think menopause lah. pleaseeeeee, boss.

dear ian: ahhhhhh, kit kat. actually, can i have a chrunchie? i like them more.

dear jonzz: boleh punya. when there's a will, there's a way mah. i will continue writing. i love it too much. just have to tweak something. i want it to be on my terms, my place, my liking, i want to do it myyyyyy wayyyyyy

dear pooh: writing about personal stuff is what makes you more personal to us. otherwise you will be like a million other bloggers talking about things and not touching our lives at all. i like reading when people write about their personal feelings. but i'm sure you know how to blog safely. it may be a little more difficult since your face is in your blog......it's either your identity is secret or your true feelings. i think it's better for the soul if you can unlighten the latter here.

dear wuching: sigh! for my soul lah, i need to recharge sikit. i felt like nobody was really reading, nobody was listening. i don't want that to bother me. so, i have to make some changes, physically or imaginary. will be back.

sengkor said...

the most i can give is half day leave.. get back here after lunch.

may said...

errr... leave for how long ah? ok lah, recharge and balik cepat ya!

Anonymous said...

so fast menopause! don bluff me! your not THAT old.

lickoholic said...

I'm gonna miss you and your posts the minute you go (on leave).

me said...

dear sengkor: where got enough ah, boss? ust bury my cat, settle my dog's last wishes and bring my goldfish for theraphy leh (pls refer to reply to las montanas for explanation)

dear may: tunggu ah. i also dont know how long leh.

dear monty: eh, my goldfish menopause lah, not me. sigh! it's because ppl like you don't really read what i write that i am disillusioned *exaggerated sigh*

dear licky: bluff! nevermind lah, absence makes the heart grow fonder mah. kakakaka.

Anonymous said...

Blogging is an expression of art. We can blog about anything.

The way I see it is, I figure there are a gabillion people in this world. Why would anyone care what I look like and what my true feelings are. People are more interested in celebrites and we see their faces on all the magazines. We know where they live and what the personal lives are about.

Nobody cares about MY personal life. So, for those who are interested, I don't mind blogging about it if you're actually willing to read it. LOL! There is a safety issue like not blogging your name, address and phone number.. but you gotta trust your instincts.

It's okay to blog what you think - maybe next week, you'll feel differently. Keep us posted.

I just removed myself a little from a bookclub messageboard I was on for the past three years. The board has moderators and they were very good about teaching me what's appropriate and what's not.. but then it got to be a little too strict - like one asked me since 9/11 tragedy was over, they suggested I take my picture out of my sig line.. or to stop capitalizing some words, or stop talking about certain things.

Too much police and restrictions, makes it hard to express your true feelings. I'm grateful for blogging and to actually have readers who comment - I think it's fun. Hope you will too soon.

Anonymous said...

Aiyooo.. me dun go!!!!!

me said...

dear annie: what a lengthy comment. i seemed to have brought out the long-windedness in annie. *ducking flying laptop battery* wild horses can't keep me away from blogging. i'm just doing it at another place at the moment. i'm still tweaking with the layout and will let everybody know the new place when i've given up messing around with it. hang on.

dear bernard: sekejap saja lah.....

Fantasy "Sticky" Flier said...

what introspective bug?

Cocka Doodle said...

You also fatt hao want to migrate to Wordpress liao ah?

Oh by the way, what's 'leave'? Never heard of it! Now...back to the grind, woman, and please don't tug at the ankle chain again. The kitchen pipe might give way. LOL

-Cocka

Nine3 Nine3 said...

1 week leave jor faster faster come back la

me said...

dear ff: that bug has been identified, drowned and burried. *grins*

dear cocka: ya lah, cny coming mah, must fatt hau a bit lah. not wordpress, still blogspot. congrats for being the first to visit my new place, stalker! lol.*whipping out saw to start sawing at ankle chain*

dear 9393: i'm still here *grins* you just have to know where to look for me!

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