tired of people dissing on others. weary of name callings, back-stabbing and everything so negative. i just came away from a 2-day bread making course and i feel so tired. aside from having loads of completely newborn fresh information crammed into my brain within the span of 18 hours, sometimes with the aid of a foot jammed into my cranial area to further stomp it in, i am weary of interactions with superficial people. our head chef hates every single living thing in the world, by category. perhaps it's the french passion in him and that's how french people are. i read that somewhere.

still, being all optimistic and eternally 'high' seems superbly pretentious and 'dumb-blonde' to me. caught between a rock and a hard place i guess, that's neither here nor there. i don't need to be reminded of how dark the world is, how naturally selfish and bad mankind can be. what i need, is to be reminded once in a while that there is still beauty in the world, that life is still good, that under all the layers of grime and crap, that the underlying core of man is pure.