reflections

when i try to look back on the year, i come up empty. sure there are photos to remind me; visiting the states with sister-in-law, celebrating cael's birthday, going to perth and sydney with my parents, reunion with friends and cousins, celebrating dad's birthday in phuket, jack's family visiting. but yet it still leaves an empty feeling. like i've wasted yet another year. what do i want to do with mine? what makes a year worth living? what fills up the soul and heart? these are questions that i need to ponder for 2013. if going abroad is not the answer to the question, then is staying? does the answer lie within me? what do i need to do? charity? nurture the soul and the spirit? i hope this time next year my reflection will be more fulfilling.

p/s: i've forgotten to mention the passing of a dear friend, june. she is so very sorely missed. 2012 was also about regrets - of not meeting up with her when i still had the chance. may she rest in peace and her memory in our hearts.