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little dot has gone back to school. after a gap of 6 months. after 184 days of being by my side. after 4,416 hours of spending every minute together - well, almost. it is difficult, i must admit. for the mother with the tightly knotted apron strings, not the little bird who is impatient to spread her wings. i tell myself every day, that it is ok, as long as she is happy, as long as she is safe and as long as she is living her life the way she wants to. it is difficult keeping the tears out from the corner of my eyes and the lump in my throat, i must admit but it is only natural to miss the hell out of her. after 264,290 minutes of sharing every thing together. thus is the conflict of a mother's heart. to want the best for her and excited for the many new things happening in her life but feeling the pain and the longing.